living dead

she threw the cup of water on him. "so is this why you will never find love in your life ? a girl who cannot live upto your gold standards, stop living in the past". wiping his face, his normally smiling face turned a bit soft probably knowing what she is going to come up with next. "you are living in the past, let her go. it was 10 years ago damnit." trembling a bit he said, "what are you talking about". her rage only grew, "you very well know whom i am talking about. i dont know how she did it but for someone who has moved on she has captured your imagination. i dont think youll be able to love anyone and i dont think you love yourself." slamming the door shut she walked out on him, someone she loved for the last two years.

he wiped his face and sat down. ten years ago she had told him, you know both of us are just the same. we dont want to end it, we dont know how to quit. and now he realized it is true but was left in the dark. he opened his email account and went through those conversations. he understood why he could not quit. it was everything, everything he ever wanted. time was not present when they were together. it was magical, it was natural. she understood him like no other, he could undertand her like no other. he could read her thoughts, she completed his sentences. it was soulmates in the true sense. she was funny and thoughtful. teasing and intuitive at the same time. with him she was fun, serious, intelligent, creative, ambitious, caring .. everything he admired. she inspired him to be himself and more. a great capacity to absorb and give. they completed each other. it was intense , it was crazy , it was left incomplete. he knew she had moved on, as probably girls do with a happily-ever-after. here he was haunted by yet another road not taken and drowning himself in the past.