catharsis

he was interrupted from his musings by the sun which glowed in the empty sky. the clouds hiding it moved further away dancing into the unknown. it felt just like home he thought. the skyline was no longer visible. he was all alone in the moment reflecting on that decision that changed the course of the life of three individuals. he wondered always, would life have changed if he had the courage to look beyond his principles. did he really have a choice ? does the course of life be determined by choices made by individuals, or is it like the course of water which does not really change by throwing some rocks into it. it still flows in the same direction overwhelming everything in its path.

the images of that day were still alive. you changed she said looking at him, or were you always like this. so you wouldnt love me anymore if it challenged your principles. he looked aghast at her, you cant really compare this with that. its just ... answer me she said. there was a tone of finality in her voice. this was her moment of truth, the blind leap of faith for which she had forsaken everything. are you really asking me for an answer .. fumbling for words. she didnt say anything. every moment he hesitated she knew maybe , maybe he was a coward. yes he said walking past her. thats me he said not knowing what reaction he would get from her. he didnt think, he could not. his mind was a blank. she walked right away from him into the flames of catharsis. he held firm, sure in his belief.

now twenty years he was not sure anymore. he pulled out the burnt photograph from happier times. he looked at her toothy smile. he knew he was not responsible for all that happened afterwards, but his words that day still weighed on him heavily. its not the significance of that day itself, but he felt like every moment of importance in his life later on was somehow influenced by that day. no matter what, he always thought about that day when something very important happened to him. afterall somehow he found himself in that very place where she looked at him with disappointment in her eyes. he only underestimated her love and overestimated her tolerance.