veiled senses

the loud music was an aberration , the voices ugly and the laughter made him cringe in fear. he looked the part, in his suit and pant one would say he was no more a outsider than anyone else. but he looked right across the hall at the door and he wished he was out of here. there were people walking , talking all in high spirits , laughing and dancing .. it was a party ! the waiters glided past him with food and drinks ... the chandeliar brightly lighting up the place but he felt something amiss. the vacant eyes talked the boredom but he knew he could mask quite easily. the weak smiles and the nod of the head was all it required to appease people. caught in their carnal pleasures they could care less. and anyways 'who said what' , 'what happened when' and 'what i did is what i am' hardly excited him anymore. his eyes roamed the room .. maybe it could still be all worth it. he walked across the hall with a smile on his face and into the balcony.
the fresh air hit him and he closed his eyes for the tranquility that now arose in him was bliss. he held the glass and had a sip of the wine and let it flow across his veins. the slow warmth arose in his body and he felt just content. he didnt want anything , didnt think about anything .. just content right there , right then. at that moment he sensed something , something that he had been waiting for the entire evening ... 'hello , looks like i can second guess the place ill find you'. he smiled , the half smile that always indicated his happiness. he turned around and couldnt resist remarking , 'well to make it easy for you'. and they laughed knowing that it was so much better than the crowd inside.