the fight

the fight within the body was unmistakable ... the fight between his emotions spread like a fire in his mind devouring every other thought. torn between what he wanted and between what she wanted. and the fight was consuming every day. all the memories that remained were in a distant past , the laughter , the smiles , the emotions and now what it meant were doubts and a ego. he felt it , the ability to make someone special was beyond words .. he didnt want to let go but there was no choice in face of the arguments. he searched for reasons , he searched for his mistakes ... but now it made no difference to her. he was in a shell , not willing to take another step to escape the pain.

Sometimes you wonder if this fight is worthwhile.
The precious moments are all lost in the tide, yea.
They're swept away and nothing is what it seems,
the feeling of belonging to your dreams.

And there are voices
that want to be heard.
So much to mention
but you can't find the words.
The scent of magic,
the beauty that's been
when love was wilder than the wind.

stuck in a moment

Band : U2 and song : stuck in a moment , cant get out of it !

I'm not afraid
Of anything in this world
There's nothing you can throw at me
That I haven't already heard
I'm just trying to find
A decent melody
A song that I can sing
In my own company

I never thought you were a fool
But darling, look at you. Ooh.
You gotta stand up straight, carry your own weight
'Cause tears are going nowhere baby

You've got to get yourself together
You've got stuck in a moment
And now you can't get out of it
Don't say that later will be better
Now you're stuck in a moment
And you can't get out of it

I will not forsake
The colors that you bring
The nights you filled with fireworks
They left you with nothing
I am still enchanted
By the light you brought to me
I listen through your ears
Through your eyes I can see

You are such a fool
To worry like you do.. Oh
I know it's tough
And you can never get enough
Of what you don't really need now

lost memory - 1

he got back home after the party , was elated no top of the world state of mind ! he always rang the bell to his house with a trepidation, fearing what his father might say about the deadline set. yes there was always a strong undercurrent of disapproval if he arrived in late ... after 11 ?! but today he knew maybe this was the day the son was given the benefit of doubt. and as always his sister opened and asked him "do you know what time it is" !! well he just smiled and walked in ... "already had dinner mom" , his mom just about to ask him that smiled from the chair where she was just finishing her curd rice. so did you son beta , and he nodded his head giving only the fine details so that they dont grill him further about the morals he had to uphold. his dad said , ill cut some fruits for you. he nodded and strode into his room and closed the door. he fell on the floor with a thud , tired after the long but eventful day. today was the last day at work , he had 2 months off and then he was off to germany with a fat paycheck and comfortable life. he looked above thank you god.

he could afford , just afford to look back at his life. his workplace , boss and colleagues , the friends he made , the ones he wanted to forget the ones he cherished ... he drifted into his college days ... and slowly to his school days where things started becoming a little fuzzy. but at the mention of school there was always one thing that was always bright , shone clearly in his mind. and the radiant smile. those innocent eyes and the sweet voice which had filled his teenage mind with much sweetness ! he woke up with a start .. where the hell is she ?
haaaa .. in this world of orkut and facebook couldnt she be tracked easily ! he bolted out and switched on his old computer .. soon everything is gonna change, with the laptop and his money ! anyways blinking at the screen which took eternity to start , he patiently now waited for his broadband to connect up. and then logging into orkut and facebook he started the search of the day , the cbi investigation ! he only knew her first name .. he searched. scrolled down and down and down ... no resemblance to anyone .. then it clicked , that guy who always always interrupted him while he wanted to talk to her .. he knew him well. checked his profile , browsed through his friends list. no profile with that name. he decided to call him and find out. suddenly this urge within surprised him ! he made the call but it was a dead end. no one knew where she was ! how was that possible .. he decided he would track her down before he left this place. his first memory still lingered in his heart.

oranges

peel off the skin,
to see the hidden...........

he had to stop looking outside

the thin ice

he was lost in the darkness , it was pitch black and he was still and not able to see a thing in front of him. it scared him, there was a sense of fear growing within him.... he dreaded the moment when he would see what lay in front of him. then suddenly in a flash there was a brilliant white light shining all around him. he had to close his eyes and then slowly opened it and looked all around him ... he wondered where he was. there was ice all around him. the ice below and it spread for miles and miles. he looked down , and then there a look of terror on his face. there was a small crack in the ice between his legs. and in an instant it grew faster , the crack became longer ..........

he woke up with a start , the sweat perspiring on his forehead. his breathing was heavy and heart very scared. his mind was jumbled with thoughts ........